Lost My Address Book!

Eeeek!  I got back to where I'm staying and can't find my address book that I have prided myself on keeping All These Years - well over 10 years...I used it on the train and must have let it slip out of my purse somehow and I am mortified.  That plus finding out from my husband that our refrigerator isn't working even though I'm not even there is making me feel out of control.  But the address book makes me sad.

I'm landing back in a place I love but no one is here.  Feeling lonely and sad.  Imagine in about an hour I will feel happy to have some space.  Right now feel all turned around.  Please say a prayer for my address book, it is a little piece of history and it is gone.

Maybe it means I'm supposed to let some of that history go, in fact I'm sure that's what it means if it means anything.  My ex-husband's old details are still in there, in fact I got it soon after we split and still put him in as my emergency contact...since updated but crossed out from when it was.

Maybe it's time to let him go?  Whaddya think?  Meanwhile, if you know me, know that I don't have your number or address anymore and please send it!

Is it sad to be writing this on a blog?  I don't know but grateful to have the outlet...even if it means showing you I get lonely and sad, which fills me with shame....even though all the rest of humanity feels these things too...it's OK for y'all but for me???  NOOOOO.

OK, so yes, obviously yes...

love to whoever reads this and to all the rest of you, too.